PAIN

Everywhere I go there seems to be pain. Whether it be the person next to me or the person inside of me. No matter what anyone can say or do it always seems to be present. It always seems to strike at the wrong time. Like just when you think nothing else can wrong, it does. This pain lingers to anything, but where does it come from and how can it just go away?

I think pain is something we created. Something that we can't just make go away. It is something we must endure. There is nothing glamorous about it and yet it is something that everyone endures everyday. Most of the time I just ignore it and hope it will go away. Yet it never does. The pain comes from me and my over exaggeration of life. Its really just myself causing my own problems.

Maybe its important though that we learn to endure the things we create because we learn from them, it builds character. Without pain I'm pretty sure I would be someone different. I wouldn't have learned from terrible experiences that gave me so much insight into what life can hold. The pain may hurt and be depressing but pain can cause great things. It causes character and endurance.

Pain may be the worst thing in the world but it can give you a real life if you learn to endure.

A New Book or a New Chapter....

The greatest thing I thought about college was a time to start a new life. Just think of all the freedom and the great new experiences that were going to start. I wanted a new life and new friends, a way to start over, but than it hit me, I had way too much I would have to let go.
I began to think to myself how ever person says you are beginning a new chapter in your life. Then it hit me. I was starting a new chapter. Nothing too new but just another chapter in my book. I wasn't creating a trilogy or a series of books for my life, I was just adding on to what was already written. That means no new stories, and nothing forgotten. I wasn't going to split my life in two and say now that I've started something new I have to forget my past.
I had so much that I couldn't forget. Everything that was in my life was there for a reason and this new chapter didn't mean that everything was solved or that everything was done. It means that its time to create an even greater depth of what was already there and add on some new things.
There is going to be twists and turns throughout all of this new chapter but those are what add the depth. A good book has depth of character and extensive detail of whats going on. Too much though can turn a reader off. A bad book is one that just goes on and on without detail leaving the reader with just more books that tell a bland story. One of the best books though has great chapters. Each one more enticing than the next. Leaving you want to read more. They create great characters that a person can connect with and makes you feel like the book was written for you.
I want to create a book with enticing chapters that make me want to keep living. I want those deep and great relationships. I want to lose nothing but make the book even better.
So what are you a chapter or a book?